I made this!

YOU GUYS!!!  This is a wonderful update…

A few of my ideas came to life over the weekend!  I did it!

I have only had time to post one item, albeit, with only one photo — not even a good photo,  I POSTED A NEW ITEM!  You guys, this is a big deal for me… I’m a doer!  I’m trying harder than I’ve ever tried before, so I am feeling proud of myself.  Even if my ideas are crap (I don’t think they are… but who am I?)… they are MY ideas and I made them with my bare hands!  That alone, is a big deal.

If you get a chance… occasionally head on over an see my new items:  Surprisingly Upbeat 

Direct link to my newest creation:  Sailboat Brooch, Please.

I made this!  Original idea by Maria Shaw

I made this! Original idea by Maria Shaw

I’ll be back to post more of my items… I think I may try and do a “I made this” series.  So I will be back!

xo

be brave. (my ramblings)

“Don’t allow your mind to tell your heart what to do. The mind gives up easily”

– Paulo Coelho

 

I’d like to be my old self again, but I’m still trying to find it

 

Be Brave… something that is so hard for me. I fear everything, it’s paralyzing; most of the time I can’t do anything because I am so afraid. I have come to realize its time for me to stop this and really try to be brave. (Only took me 35 years to get to here, but hey who’s counting?) It’s been a week and I’m doing so-so. Not bad, but not great. Amplifying hope & happiness has never been easy, so every moment I have to remind myself to be positive. I’m doing much better. I see the light at the end of the tunnel; I know it’s only a week, but hey… it’s a WEEK!

So anyway, I haven’t been in the right frame of mind for a good update lately. I miss blogging. A lot. But I just can’t seem to get in a good place to have something anything to say. I’m not saying life is bad, it’s not bad… it’s quite good most of the time. I’m just missing my creativity I suppose. I need to find it soon so I feel sane again.

I miss feeling sane.

One thing that has been on my mind lately… rebuilding life. I feel like since I moved back from NJ I’ve struggled to rebuild my life. It shouldn’t be this hard, but wow… it’s still hard! I sort of lost it all when I moved back from NJ – friends, job, dog, home, the life I’d come to know. I moved home and I feel like it’s been this uphill battle to get my life back. I made traction and thought I was moving forward at a good pace in 2011; then it all fell apart again. Kind of like that game Chutes and Ladders… made it almost to the top and I land on a Chute and fell all the way down again.

*sigh* Back to the drawing board…

Recently, I do feel like I was given the tools to rebuild a great new life and my attitude has had a bit of a shift; a brighter outlook on life. So now I need to really try to focus my energy on happiness & creativity. I have lost so much time on dwelling on the past, I’ve missed out on the present. My new job is wonderful, I have an excitement for the future I haven’t had in a long time & its Friday. I’m climbing up a ladder for sure… I just have to keep holding on; sure there are going to be chutes here and there, but I won’t let another one take me all the way to the bottom.

So here’s to a new outlook and brighter days ahead! xo

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My first.

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So, for months (and months) I’ve been wanting to make this a weekly entry on this lonely blog of mine.  I’ve been putting it off and putting it off.  Well, the procrastination stops here!  This is the first of the weekly Currently posts.  I love reading other bloggers “Currently” posts and it always inspires me to want to do it.  So here we go…

Thinking about:  What I’m going to do while R is out of town.  I was talking to a friend of mine last week, her BF is going out of town on business for an extended amount of time and I was telling her how great it really can be for her while he is away; there are so many great things about it, sure she’ll miss him and it sucks to be alone sometimes, but if you push those thoughts out of your head… its such a wonderful time to reflect on yourself and do everything just for you.  All about me time.

I should listen to myself more… R is going out of town for a week (BIG DEAL, seriously) and I was having a panic attack.  I really don’t like being alone, but I made it through 11 months without him, I think I can handle a WEEK.  Anyway, all the great advice I was offering to my friend I should really make use of myself.  I made a list at the beginning of the year of all the things I miss doing that have taken a backseat to my pouting and feeling sorry for myself, so starting tonight and going through the end of the week (and beyond of course), I’m going to tackle my long list of unfinished crafty projects, wear a face mask, whiten my teeth, get my nails done, clean the apartment thoroughly, do my laundry & put it all away, maybe even go through my shoes!  So. much. to. do. !!  And lots of *me* time to do it in!  How exciting (using that term loosely, but one persons chore is another persons exciting adventure, right?  No?  Well, I am trying here!)  So really… why was I ever disappointed R was going away?

Feeling:  A little like this:

 

I just can’t seem to stop from drowning in my own self pity (wah wah I had a bad year, boo hoo – time to get over it already!).  It’s really driving me (and I’m sure, everyone around me) crazy.  So it’ll be good that R will be gone, I’m going to do a little reset.  I didn’t do a very good job of it this morning, but I will work on it for the rest of the week and maybe he’ll come back to a more relaxed and calm girlfriend.  Here is to hoping I’m more like this by the end of this week:

Watching:  Game of Thrones – obsessed with Daenerys Targaryen and her dragons and Robb Stark isn’t hard on the eyes either, its an incredible show.  New Girl.  The Mindy Project.  Veep.  Mad men.  Dexter (season 5). Mostly those, I believe.  I love TV, I have no shame.  So I’m looking forward to watching Friends reruns, dumb sitcoms, Real Housewives of OC (SO GOOD) & dramas (mostly catching up on  Mad Men) that R doesn’t watch this week.  Yay!

Reading:  I *am* going to read the next book that my book club (that I joined like 2 years ago) chooses this time.  So I will find out in a few days what I’ll be reading.  As of right now, I have no current reads.  Maybe I should finish up The Paris Wife ( LOVE it so far) or Committed.  Both are fantastic, yet I haven’t picked them up in months.  Maybe that’s something I should do before bed all this week.  Add that to the list!

Looking forward to:  My new job!  Well, I haven’t officially received an offer yet, but I interviewed & received a possible offer (read: a curious email that implied a job offer is on its way, maybe/possibly/hopefully).  I am thinking very positive thoughts, throwing out positive vibes, crossing my fingers and hoping very strongly that this week I receive the letter.

Making me happy: Finally finishing this post. (!!!)  Like I said, I’ve been wanting to do one of these updates for many many months and I just never had enough to say.  Also making me happy:  me time, crafting, a clean apartment, possible (very possible) new job and everything that comes with it, sunshine and my cat.

sunshine & roses…

Here I am again… a new blog.  I think this is my fifth fresh start!  😉  Nothing wrong with that though, since the other blogs seemed to always have a theme… me complaining, I want this one to truly be a positive place for me to go and feel good.  I used to have a feel good blog; when I visit it, I still feel good; it’s just, the reasoning behind it was not a very positive one.

So here we go again… a fresh start.  I feel like it’s a great time too.  Fall is beginning, R is back home, my birthday is right around the corner… so much good!

Very excited to be here.  I have so many ideas!

Anyway, I just wanted to say hello to my new little corner of the internet… I hope everyone has a super day. ❤

With Love,
Maria

If this doesn’t make you smile, nothing will. ❤